Back to Connors first birthday! The day was surreal as I stared at my 20 pound boy playing with his toys, walking around (with the help of the couch or walker), chatting up a storm and pointing to things. How could this be the same baby that I delieverd just 365 days ago? How did he go from barely opening his eyes and unable to hold his own head up to a little toddler, clapping, waving, and talking? I remember the day like it was yesterday. I can still remember laying in bed at 4am, feeling those first contractions and for a second thinking, is this really it? Within seconds I felt another one and there was no question, this was in fact IT! I can still remember the moment my water broke, while in bed, and Derek quickly jumping out of bed and into action. I remember the car ride, feeling those contractions so close apart as Derek drove, lets just say several miles over the speed limit. I can picture myself walking into room 207, thinking to myself "this is where my baby is going to be born". I can picture the walls, the window, the bed, the machines. I can see all my family and friends near. I can feel Derek hold my hand as he helped me contraction after contraction. 16 hours later, and 20 minutes of pushing, I got to hold my baby boy for the very first time. Instantly, as I felt his skin lay upon mine, he stole my heart. He opened my heart to feel even more love than it could have ever imagined. That day was the most magical day of my life, and I don't think many days will top it. I was in horrible pain, yet so at peace. I felt so much love from my husband and so much excitement from my family.
365 days later, I stare at amazement at who that 7 pound 13 ounce baby boy has become and I thank God everyday for allowing me to be his mommy. Each of those 365 days, I held him close, I took the moments in because I knew he wouldn't stay a baby forever.
A first birthday isn't just a celebration for the baby, it's a celebration for the parents, the grandparents and the whole family. A whole year of raising a child, giving him 100% of my attention and love every single day. I leave you with some pictures of his extra special first birthday party!
