christmas day with a 10 month old was magical
i loved every second of decorating, buying presents, wrapping gifts, and playing Santa Claus
Connor lit up when he saw all the balloons & presents left for him by Santa & mommy & daddy
somedays, i forget life before Connor, simply because it doesn't compare to life with him
the joy that Connor shares with all of us makes everyone around him light up
he lights up a room, simply by smiling and being the baby that he is
Everyday, I try to savor all my seconds that I get to spend with him
How could I not?
Everyday he is growing, changing and becoming more independent
one day he may not want to cuddle at 3am so peacefully in my arms
one day nursing will not be a comforting solution when tears fill his eyes
one day he may not want to be held ALL day long or like to go grocery shopping with mommy
somedays, some moments are so precious, so perfect & so magical; that i wish i could record them so i could play that moment over & over & over again
like when he I walk into his room in the morning and am greeted with a large, gummy smile of a little boy reaching for his mommy
or when i pick him up and his body instantly messes with mine as he nestles his head into the cravats of my neck and takes a big sigh in contentment
or when i hold him in my arms & kiss his soft checks and he giggles in a shy, adorable way
those moments are so perfect
& Christmas day was that same way
this year has been full of so many JOYS; mainly Connor & all the love that he has created, enhanced and opened us all up too
However, it has also involved heartbreak, defeat, anxiety & terror. 2012 was a hard year for my family; with my father in laws health having its ups & downs and my in laws home burning down to the ground, along with several friends & family members getting divorced.
I have learned that life will be full of defeat, sadness and pain, but along with that... comes joy, overcoming and happiness.
On Christmas Day, as I was surround by my loved ones, the ones who endured pain, terror and sadness this year, I was reminded of their strength and optimistic attitude they conveyed. They remind me that life is a special gift, and each day surely is magical. I felt so much peace on Christmas day. Sitting around the fire opening presents at my in-laws new home, seeing my brother laugh and smile, and signing the 12 days of Christmas around the dinner table are memories I will never forget.
2012 may have had its rough moments, but Christmas day was perfect.
Connor's 1st Christmas was one I will remember forever. Not only was he showered with presents galore, he was also showered with so much love. In his innocent eyes, you could see the excitement and amazement of the day.
He smiled so much that day & is having the time of his life playing with all his new toys!
2012 may have had its rough moments, but Christmas day was perfect.
Connor's 1st Christmas was one I will remember forever. Not only was he showered with presents galore, he was also showered with so much love. In his innocent eyes, you could see the excitement and amazement of the day.
He smiled so much that day & is having the time of his life playing with all his new toys!
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