Moving on out...

Last night, I crawled into bed exhausted after an hour and 1/2 of putting Connor to sleep... yes in his OWN room. Derek was almost asleep but whispered to me "you're a great mama, you're doing a great job. Connor is lucky to have you". My heart filled up with relief. Its as if Derek knew I needed to hear that. Just minutes before I was rocking Connor to sleep, about to lay him in his crib, asking myself "Am I doing the right thing? Is this the right time to move him into his own room?" As I rocked him, I knew he was sound asleep but I held him for a few minutes longer. In that moment, I knew a change was happening. The little raspberry that grew inside of me for 9+ months was now a 5 month old full of smiles, laughs and personality. The 7 pound newborn that slept right next to me and woke up every 3 hours now weighted 16 pounds and slept longer through durning the night! At that moment I knew this was the first of many changes ahead of us. Every mother prays that their child grows healthy however, along with growth comes change. Connor couldn't sleep in our room forever and in fact, he will probably sleep even better in his own room without his daddy snoring, Radar dreaming and waking up due to his pack n play bowing in the middle :/ 

I know I will ask myself if Im doing the right thing many more times in the future. I know that as long as Connor is smiling and growing, then Im doing a great job. I also know that if I don't feel 100% comfortable with it, then it's not the right thing. Last night I felt comfortable. I felt positive that my baby boy was ready to sleep good in his own room & I needed to stop being selfish wanting him to sleep next to me in a bowing pack n play forever. 

Connor woke up once last night at 1:30am and I rocked him to back to sleep in 5 minutes. I was then greeted by a smiling baby boy at 8:30am. 

I think Connor enjoyed his new bed.

Plus it was kinda nice to cuddle with my hubby and not worry about waking up a sleepy baby right next to us!