The other day, a friend of mine told me I was made to be a mom. The way she said it was so sincere & the words felt so true. The truth is I agree with her. Being a mom fits me. I love every single second of it... including the dirty diapers, crying, teething, & having no time to myself to take a shower... Yes I love all that. I understand Connor in a way no one else do. I can instantly tell when he is tired, fussy, & hungry & I know exactly how to make him happier. We get each other.
As the first of many of my friends to have a baby, lots of my friends have told me how "good" I am at being a mom, how happy Connor always is & how we make it all look easy. It's flattering to hear but the truth is, I just do what comes natural and in return, Connor is happy. Babies do not come with handbooks and everyday brings new challenges and decisions for me to make and I just go with my gut.
On Monday, I am returning to finish my masters... It was a decision that took months for me to make. Most decisions I make and go confidently into them, however this has not been the case. I love school. I love learning and gaining knowledge in areas that I love.
However, that was before I had Connor.
Things change when you have a baby, priorities change, life changes.
Part of me wants to stay at home with Connor, and future babies and never leave their side. The other part of me knows that I have invested lots of $ into school, and in a year and a half, I'll have a masters to prove my hard work, and not to mention be able to do my dream job in the future... if I ever do have to work in the future (lets hope not!) I also know that it is good for both Connor and myself for us to spend some time apart too. He will be well taken care of with daddy, nonni & grandma on occasions.
I know that I was made to be a mommy & I hope that in the future I can stay home full time & spoil my kids like crazy with love...
With a masters hanging on my wall :)
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